Eternity
I see you. I feel you. I am going to touch you and I am touching the blank. I look around but your form is already gone. A while ago you were here. I could touch you, feel you, hug you, smell you, hear you..
Now emptiness. I am looking at the clouds and searching for your form among their dim light. I still can't realize you're gone. Are you going... on a long trip? On a trip we didn't take together. I wonder how eternity made an appointment for you, and you went to find it. I am looking at your things with my blurry eyes. A hot waterfall rushes out of them, at your every memory. How can I fill the gap?
What is it that I feel every time my mind goes back to you? How can I get out of this vortex that I am feeling every day pulling me more and more? Is there anything emptier than what I feel right now? How is emptiness real if it's not the way I feel it?
How can I go on without you when you promised me, we'd be together forever? How can I proceed? I'll have to learn to walk all over again. Step by step to come back to life as a half unit now.
Who chooses who will do the calculations? Why, since death took them into his hands, did he choose to put division between us? Who decides who will leave or who will be left to suffer?I want to give it a go, tear it all down. What we built together now seems like palaces in the sand. The sand in the hourglass was lost as soon as the last grain fell and with it a life was lost.
I want to come and find you, and maybe it's futile to think about it... but I can't take the pain anymore.
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