Words…
There are so many things that I feel inside, that the words struggle to come out of my lips...
But even that seems so difficult right now. Each letter is carved into me, as if fighting with itself. My lips are sealed and my tongue is now tied like a tight knot. I know that if I speak now my words will become nails. My every word will be like a blade that can masterfully cut even the smallest vein.
Even if it's not real...
And yet… there are those words too… You know, the ones that are as soft as a caress. Where you say them to your interlocutor and he feels that you caress him with a soft feather. A razor transformed into a feather.
And that's when you know the words aren't true. How they hide behind rotten smiles and talk sprinkled with fake love.
Those are the moments that really disgust you. Want to shake off those words that stuck to your skin, like leeches. Who fight to suck the blood... your very soul!
But you don't react.
There are also those moments when you are forced to bow your head and accept what is unfolding in front of you. Take part, unwittingly, in this travesty.
You are patient. You grit your teeth.
Inside you know. The moment will come when you will be able to release your emotions. The day will come when you won't have to hold back the words anymore. Where this torrent will finally be released.
You know that then you might be vindicated.
